In high school you are ranked, wheather its by looks or grades you will be compared and analyzed. I am really getting this perpetual feeling of rank. Every so often I have friends, intellegent friends, who like to secretly rank eachother and compete for most inttelectual. As I sat at lunch with my nerd herd, as I like to call them, I recognized this invisible tension. When they asked me about my finals or my quarter grades, I just lifted my shoulders with a careless "I don't know". This seemed to make everyone around me annoyed, like they were itching to know my deepest darkest secret. Truth is, I could care less. Not that I don't care, because I really do. I have been getting As and very high GPAs. I just know that if I let myself dive into this black whole of competition, I will never come out. "Focus, and stay focus, but only on yourself." My mom said. So as I sat at lunch while they poked me, and poked me, and poked me about my grades, I kept a silent distance from all of them. Every day it seems like I'm getting to understand who these people really are. Do I belong with them? Should I even call them friends? Like many high school issues, this is another hurdle I will have to jump. I am guessing there will be no pillowy floor for landing. 
OK so your in high school. High school sucks, as I've told my kids when people tell that high school was the best time of their lives their 1) lying to you/themselves 2)were so self absorbed they didn't notice what was going on around them or 3) they didn't go to to college and that was their peak! Sorry that's how I see it. I found you on Blogaholic and I'm from Bridget's Daughter
ReplyDeleteThank you for your feedback Natalie :) I actually believe that too. I'm just focusing on myself and whats best for me in high school. I'm at a point where I just don't care what others say or think.
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